年越新，越快乐

思绪--徘徊在放开与否的边缘。疯子。

雾

一片蒙胧。。

还要多久？

命运。。

一开始就注定的结局。。又是同一种梦。。
无力。。

Dream..

How could it possibly be same as before..? I can't believe..

信任

努力了。。
信任少了只是一方的问题吗。。？

结束。。。

不是我要的结果。。。累了。。

come!

crush me! what could have been worse? I can still take it

累了。。。

。。。天意。。还是自己太容易放弃。。？

Life..

Today, grandma was dignosed with Alzheimer's Disease & mild stroke.. needs medication to slow deterioration for 2 years & the rest is up to fate & grandma.. God please bless grandma with good health till the last day..
Dear dear also just got to know she's having hair problem as well... doubly upset.. why are those around me having so much problems in this 1 month..including myself..? Everything's coming at the same time... it's kind of overwelming for me to handle emotionally & financially.. everything seems to be going out of place... what's wrong...? Including some fucking stupid annoying things happening at work.. Can I live a life without all these worries..?

I have to be stronger!!!

人生是短暂的，幸福要靠自己追求。。祝福你。。

之前也没特别留意过这首歌。。但既然你喜欢并将它点给你认为是你生命里最在乎的人。。我也该放开下了。。
心里难免还是会难受。。毕竟也曾被你那么认定，但现在，我知道那不会是我。。
也不该再有任何犹豫了，既然现在已有了她。。

就让我点回这首歌给你。。祝你幸福。。

New resolution, new thoughts

1) Watch budget... -_-lll
2) Must be more mindful of emotions, never lose control of words when angry.
3) I need to see through my life goals... is drifting away lately.. stablising in process..

Nice song.. don't mean to hurt sometimes but I did... will be more mindful next time..

今年最开心的一天 \(^o^)/

我好开心。。 :D 万万万也没想到她竟然会成为风水师了。。。 太惊讶了！！太厉害了！！ 认识那么多年竟从不知她会风水。。保密功夫天下无敌。。也竟然误会她了。。想起来真的很好笑。。陪游。。。 ^^; 真庆幸我发了那封简讯，果然没发错 \(^o^)/
感谢上天。。，你对我太好了。。


请保佑她们俩都能快快乐乐，幸福美满的生活下去。。
遇见她俩，不枉此生了。。

“心有多宽，路就走多远”-- 我会一辈子记着。。谢谢你。。

Goodbye...

It's been confirmed after doing some trial & error tests. Last few days was still shaky until this morning when all the clouds are cleared =) I'm glad heaven arranged another more accomodating person for me.. I'll cherish her like the way I did without all the regrets I had before.. The feelings will one day grow to be as strong, I believe because she has alot of similarities without the conflicting part.. Hope you'll have a better life ahead without me.. goodbye..

Her name is XXX ^_^

It has taken me by surprise for this new destiny ^^ It was still pretty stormy early this morning when I wake up at 6:50am & I had totally no clue I'll say goodbye to my singlehood within the next 24 hrs; we ended last night with some unpleasant sms that made me feel like 'The End..' before I can even start. That felt bad even though it was not even started.

The girl I'm after for the past 3+ months has started to accept me more for the past 1 week. We have been sms-ing each other all day, trying to know each other better before committing to this relationship; feels like a job interview session stretching 1 week. Both of us had lost faith in the typical BGR.. but I have this fondness for her, she's the only girl I met for the past 2 years that is within my radar for soulmate. I saw some similarity between the 2.. I don't know what I want.. maybe I choose not to know.. But from this moment on, I know what I need to do. The best way to forget about the last is to start another relationship.. it may sound unfair but I'll compensate her with my heart & soul.. I shall leave you from now..
A libra too she is..

New destiny...

I dunno if she's going to be the one, it's not official yet. This is like a probation period... but I have a strange feeling of uncertainty & unease... am I too just too used to being unrestricted & free as a single soul? I need to move on.. I just dunno what will happen to this supposedly new soulmate.. I can't wander around for the remaining of my life, my male animal instinct is telling me to do something for my incomplete lifestage.. I hope all will be well ahead.

Changes

Been a busy year at work..

Grandma seems to age faster lately; with hardly anyone to chat with her now whenever we were out to work.. I hate this feeling of not being able to do much more, that's why I can't let my work take up more of my current time. For those who've been sincerely trying to waste more of my time working or at least hoping me to work more OT/overnight, FUCK OFF!!

A new year 2010, a new job

Time flies, another year had passed. This is the start of 2010 & myself turning 32 soon.. Life is really like a dream; 31 years already behind don't feel that long after all, and that makes another 31 probably feeling the same or even faster. It shouldn't be long before I'll reach my retirement age of 50s-60s.

I hate to imagine myself without my own family by that age, but I'm already starting to think what will happen if I still can't find the right person to spend the remaining of my life with. 40 is just 8 years away from now.. But as I've told myself; everything will pass in a 100 years. Nothing is too big a deal in life, depending on how little or much meaning you gave to it. I'll still hope for the better though in this coming new year. Starting from tomorrow in my new work place, new colleagues & new career prospect once again. Unfortunately it's working hours were bit too long as compared to my previous jobs; I guess I just have to live with the-even-lesser personal time now for the sake of my career & financial goals. I can do it!! Even if without you by my side anymore. I will definitely succeed in attaining my goals & eventually live the life I want!